Track

So, yes I've been in track for the past about 2 months. It's been a lot of fun really except for all of the running. I run long distance, and have ran the 15 hundred and the 8 hundred at all of our meets, which I got last in every time except for the one time when I got second to last, but I don't really care if I get last. In someways it's nice that track is almost over because it has made life so busy and now I will have time for ALL the other things that need to be done, like scrap booking, and packing. Tomorrow we are going to the district meet over in the valley and since I will get last , most likely, and even if I don't I won't be qualifying for the state meet next weekend, which means that track is about to be over for me and today was my last practice. It's really been nice to have something to do because I was so tired of always being bored and not having anything to do.

Another Talent Show

So, yesterday I was in another talent show, but this time it was a high school talent show, in front of the whole high school and it was just me and the piano instead of me and my little sisters. I had planned on playing 'Only Hope' by Mandy Moore, but I only had two weeks to learn it and I was really busy with other things too, so on Monday I had to decided that I just wasn't ready enough to play that song. I ended up deciding that I would play 'When the Saints Go Marching In'. There were about 8 people in the talent show and most of them all sang, some also played guitar. I didn't think that I was too nervous or anything, but then when I got up there to play I was shaking terribly. I hadn't played for a crowd in about 3 or more years and even then usually the only people in the crowd that I even knew was my family, so playing for a crowd that was my whole high school, all people who I know, was a new experience for me. I know that I messed up a few times, but I remembered what my piano teacher used to tell us before recitals and just kept playing because nobody else knows that I messed up, unless I happen to stop because of it. I didn't win, but I didn't care that I didn't win either because I was mostly just doing it for fun and I really think that everyone in the talent show did very good.

Zakk

It seems so hard to believe that such a good friend is now gone; at only 17. Our hearts feel empty knowing that he is not here any more. We all know that he is now up in heaven with the Lord, which is where he belongs, but at the same time that makes us wish we could go too so that we don't have to wait so long to see him again. This is going to make our lives so different and our summers. Summer is when we got to see him the most; at cam pouts and other get togethers. We all have so many memories of Zakk that will never be forgotten and we will keep him forever in our hearts until the day we see him again, up there in the clouds.

Zakk was a great friend and earned his place in the hearts of all those who knew him and spent any amount of time with him. His love for music, constant drumming on everything or air drumming where ever he happened to be, singing whenever he got the chance, all the times he made us laugh, that smile of his that was always there, the beautiful eyes that we all know he hated, the way he was always joking, but yet serious at the same time, playing football, baseball or volleyball at cam pouts, how he never let his size get in the way of his dreams, taking his own trails when we were at silver creek falls, how he had to climb up that opening in the side of the falls and get stuck, always talking about music, the time he showed us the right way to make and eat a marshmallow, when he wasn't afraid of his shoe stinking when we past it around the circle, the big heart he had, how he helped Josh sing that song he started when they were the only ones even singing, looking up in the rafters of the campfire thing and seeing him up there singing with us, teaching us new games, how he helped make everyone be quiet and listen when it was time to decide what game we all wanted to play, what a help he was with all of those 13 year olds who had to be inisated, how he always said "hi" and gave wonderful hugs, a partner in mattress surfing if you were a guy, the one to make a quiet moment loud, always there to help out or just laugh with, all of the crazy times we all got to spend with him; these are just a few of the things that made Zakk so great, special, and different from any other friend we had and exactly why we loved him so much. He was a part of our group and he will be greatly missed in so many ways.

I want to be like Zakk when I grow up. He was the best and greatest and most amazing of all of us. His faith and confidence in the Lord has given us all a new inspiration to have no fear. We should all live such an amazing life and go just like Zakk has gone. We keep wondering why he had to go but now we understand how Zakk was too good for us and truly too good to be down here on earth any longer. He was small, but his heart was so much bigger. We never knew that he would leave us so soon, but now we want to go up there to heaven where we can be with Zakk and our Lord and so many others like Zakk who have left us. He is our hero, an inspiration and example to all of us of how we need to live our lives. He's up there now, I can just see him playing for the Lord, with his crazy purple hair, singing in that choir of angels and making everyone up there laugh, just like how he always made all of us laugh while he was still down here with us. Life won't be the same without him, but we'll live it to the fullest just like Zakk has taught us to and meet him again one day in glory land.

Because the slide show that they had at his memorial didn't have any pictures of Zakk at cam pouts or other get togethers, which was because his family didn't have any, we decided to make a scrapbook for his family with pictures of him with the brethren. We would like to get copies of any pictures anyone might have of Zakk and we are also going to let anyone who wants to write down as many memories and stories that they want to about Zakk, which will also be in the scrapbook for his family to read over and over again. We are going to kind of try to keep this a secret from his parents for as long as we can. We have opened an account at Walmart.com for people to upload any pictures of Zakk. The email address/login ID is crazyandconfused92@hotmail.com and the password is RIPZakk. Thank you to anyone who uploads pictures for this.

The Weekend and Other Updates On Life

So, as some of you may already know, we had a party here this past weekend for Tyrel and Zach's birthdays. We had a pretty good turn out, considering that we didn't send anything out, but did it by word of mouth, which was okay because we were afraid a lot of people would come and we wouldn't have beds for everyone. But it all worked out good. We were going to have a fire outside and have a wienie roast, but people called in and complained, so we didn't end up getting to roast anything. So, we hot dogs and chips and other good food. We did a lot of singing from time to time, which was nice. The young kids played some games. Then we ate cake and the boys opened the cards that some people had brought and few presents from family. Then we played a few more games until everyone started going to the houses where they were staying. Us girls stayed at Kansada's. We ate popcorn, watched The Notebook and then went to bed. Not everyone went straight to sleep, but Shay and I did. Church on Sunday was really wonderful, we heard a lot of great things (though at the moment I can't really think of exactly what). We did I knkow hear about how we need to be living the faith without even thinking about it really; if you know what I'm trying to say. We had dinner after church, sang some more, talked some and then slowly people started leaving to head on home.

So, the update is that I have started doing Track. It's really fun other than all of the running. LOL. No, I actually enjoy the running too, for the most part. Today I had to go in and get a physical, which I was a little nervous about because, you know I have NEVER been to a doctor in my life (which the world doesn't really understand), but I passed and they said that I was healthy. So, my life seems a little bit crazy and busy and at first I was way sore, but I've gotten used to it and don't get quite as sore as before. Sometimes the running feels like death, but I just have to think about what good shape I will be in by the end of the season. And, hey at least I'm not sitting at home bord everyday anymore...

Digital Media

Well I really wanted to post the pictures and colleges that I've been working on in the Digital Media class that I'm in this semester, but because we don't have the photo shop program on our computer it wouldn't let me put them on the computer. Which meant that I couldn't post them, which also really irritates me because I really wanted to share them with everyone because they are really cool and I had a lot of fun making them. In the class we get to choose a program to work with for a few weeks and do a project on it. I chose to do photo shop, which is used to edit pictures and use photo effects and make different photo creations. It was a really fun program to use and someday when I have money and maybe even my own camera I would like to buy the program for myself because I liked it so much.

2 Poems

I decided that since I hadn't been having any big kind of inspiration for a post I would just pick one of my poems to post. Well, I looked through the different ones and decided on these 2. They were wroten about a year ago and don't really have anything to do with the way that I feel now, but they are just what I picked. I had to post them both because they kind of go together.

Broken

When you've been hurt, Nothing feels right.

Everything inside of you torn apart.

Life seeming to go all wrong.

You cry yourself to sleep, And don't care a bit what people say.

The world seems to keep going without you.

Everything spinning in the same way as before, But you just can't get back on.

You feel broken, Pieces everywhere.

Everything dark, Sunshine gone away.

Nothing goes the way you thought it would.

Love blown away, Never to come back again.

Mind rolling on, Always remembering.

Losing it all.

Broken into a million pieces, Can't be fixed.

Dieing inside, Where no one can see.

Hating the feeling, Wishing it all away.

Running with the wind, Trying to get away.

When you're broken and hurt, It never goes away.

Moving On

I felt something stronger, That couldn't be reached.

You ended, But I couldn't.

The hurt went on forever, Never to stop.

Now I'm moving on, Trying not to remember.

Living better then I have in a while.

Seeing things in a new way.

I've found the love of life I had lost.

Moving to a new time, Where none of that matters any more.

If you didn't want my love, Then I'll take it all back.

Trading thinking, To get by the time.

Keep on moving, On and on.

Saying it all, Letting it out, Not keeping any in.

Dreaming has stopped, Back to reality.

Looking forward, Into the future.

No more crying, No more hurt.

Getting better, Day by day.

Into the new, Forget the old.

Seeing you, As you really are.

I maybe angry, But I'm not sad.

Cause I'm moving on, Goin all the way.

-The odd thing I think is that the dates on these poems say that the second one was only wrote the day after the first one.

Weekend in Portland

So, we went over to Portland or Hillsboro for the weekend. We stayed with Bro. Rusty and Sis. Mary, which was nice and we all got some really good visiting in. On Saturday we helped move the Easters into their new house, it was a lot of work, but we managed to get them completely move over there. Both nights the adults and I stayed up until about 11:30 visiting, which as I said before was really nice. Meeting was really good on Sunday, we heard a lot about loving your neighbor and how we need to treat one another. Uncle Matt and Aunt Tisha had everyone over for dinner after church and then at about 5 we headed home.